20080723 I felt so powerless.
Recently, I talked to someone who haven't talked to me for a long time.
The first one is Sonia, who I met about three years ago.
I think we haven't talked to eatch other for around hald of hours.
I saw her on the facebook and she added me as a friends.
I felt so happy,I think I haven't talked to her longer than I could image.
I even didn't know where she is.
I felt so surprised when I heard from her.
I don't know what we could talk about.
However, the familiarity between us still exists,I think.
Astonishing is not enough to dexcribe my feeling...
I wish be facebook we would have more connection.
I talked to Nick this morning.
It also shocked me.
I haven't talked to him for more than a year.
I also knew him at the summer at wyoming...
He is the first I really admire.
He knows a lot and he is kind of charmed to me.
He knows a lot of languages,such as chinese, English, Japanese and Russian(I am not sure.)
He is now joining a comprtition in China and then he moves to Tokyo to learn Japanese for a year.
When do I have such courage to chanllege myself?
I really like his personality- confident, adventure,
If I want myself to grow up, I think I should give myself so power like him.
Nick, I am happy ro have talk with you again.....
Today,when I grew upat seven, I want to finish the plan I should do lask week,however,
I found I have nothing to think,in other word,
I don't know anything about the new year of AIESEC,
I felt so isolated for what I should do and I can't say to my boss.
Because I hadn't joined the SNCF.LC plan meeting and so on...
I didn't go to the first FM this year...
I found I know nothing and I start to feel afraid that I don't know how to be a VP.
The more time I am in LA, the more I can't understand the AIESEC plan.
In fact, I don't know what to do.
I figured out that no one could understand me and know my powerless.....
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I want to find a place and cry out.....
But I don't know what I can do.
Afternoon,after I finished my discussion with Ryan and Angir with my debates,
I talked with Kandell, and I knew a big news.....
My friend broke up with her boyfriend.
But I can't do nothing for her...
I felt hurt because I knew how sad did my friend got.
I still remembered the happiness she showed when she had boyfriend.
Just half of year passed, they broke up and never again?
How could it be.........I would like to kill that guy...
Could I??
